Me vs Me

I find that I fight with myself a lot when I'm doing any exercise. In my head I'm arguing because I really don't want to do it anymore but I tell myself I have to. A back and forth of, "It's only 5 more minutes you can do it," and "It's only five minutes, what difference will that make?" Sometimes I go that 5 more minutes, and sometimes I don't. I guess thats kind of a let down that I don't have the will power to just do it. 

I haven't weighed myself, but I know that I haven't lost any weight. I feel like I've gained it but most likely not. I exercise and then counter-act it by eating crap in the middle of the night. I have to say it isn't entirely my fault, but it is my fault. Working at a pizza place until 3am leaves me hungry because it's been so long since my last meal and it doesn't leave me many healthy options. Beside, why spend 6 dollars on a salad when I can spend 1 on a slice right? It's kind of wasting all my efforts though.

However, tonight is my last night to work this job. Not because of this weight loss thing, but I work until 3am. Thats crazy. 3am never existed in my life before this job. 

Instead of exercising today I moped around about how nothing has changed, which obviously isn't helping, so I will stop. I need to actually progress in this or it will be considered a failure, and I don't like that.